Fake Happy

My mother told me to smile and say he wasn't the one for you so a fake one and say yeah your right mom i don't feel anything anymore. Though when she leaves the room i drop to my knees and whisper to my self "Jair you have no clue how much you have hurt me and still are...evey day that passes every time i breath it hurts...all because of you." A fall into a sleep on my new bamboo floor hoping to never wake up ever again....People say tears are a sighn of weakness i say they are a sighn of healing. though my heart heals very very slowly